Ok hey, admitting I need help (questions, long). via /r/alcoholicsanonymous

Alright..stats.. 33 year old female, have brain tumor, very creative, Gemini, associates in art, smart. Steady job with recent pay raise. Never left home yet.

I am SO bored. Mostly, all I do is sleep. I do take 60mg cymbalta for anxiety. Because of my tumor, (which is on my optical nerve) my face and eye feels funny, and I get weirded out.(hence anxiety pills) but all I want to do is sleep. That way I don't think of anything. I work steady, but when I get home from work, I have nothing to do!! I could clean a few things, or work on a painting, but I usually try to take a nap, and end up sleeping 12 + hours. I dont have motivation. I could do something for a little bit, but sit here for five hours. Drinking is an escape. The only way I stay up past 7pm is to have some drinks. Today "some" equal to 12 beers so far.. I even went out after 6 beers to get more.. cursing myself and saying that I am stupid for doing so. (No I have never gotten a ticket nor would I drive drunk.). I just am REALLY bored all the time, and drinking feels like an escape. I know this is too much and I don't want it to escalate, really or continue. Ok, some P.S info. I am never an unsafe drinker, but recently my boyfriend got SO wasted, I had to pick him up, he fell down the stairs and fractured his skull. Had to have emergency craniotomy. Month in hospital, I think I drink more now after his accident. Shouldn't I have learned a lesson!? Please Any help or suggestions?

Tldr:. My main point is that I am SO bored, drinking seems like an escape. Several interesting points within.